get miles away...

so far away...

ascoisas que eu leio quando oiço!!!

The flame is melting the wax away
I’m locked in a stare
24 minutes make one day
Am i here or there

The street is filled with horses, riders
There’s no single car
All the kings men in front of a neon fortress

Many moons and a single star
I’m lost in one breath
Many moons and a single star
I’m lost

New york becomes paris
And paris turns into rome
Italian girls are dancing
To the symphony
Made of one tone

A little boy with grey hair
Did ask me for a cigarette
I said i can’t move
I’m locked in a stare

He stole my heart and he left
Angry and sad
He stole my heart
And he left
I’m lost

(i don’t know, i don’t know what
Cause i don’t know, i don’t know what)

Bring my heart back
It’s the only thing ive got
Bring my heart back
Cause without i’m dancing disconnected
It’s the only thing i’ve got
Bring my heart back

Life is drawing itself
In this electic night
I’m walking sleepless
In a painting of dali
I see crying sculptures from bali
I’m chasing an old man in high heels

(i don’t know, i don’t know what
Cause i don’t know, i don’t know what)

Bring my heart back
It’s the only thing i’ve got
Bring my heart back
Cause without i’m dancing disconnected
It’s the only thing i’ve got
Bring my heart back

It’s beating stronger
Maybe not longer
I found a second one in my chest

Bring my heart back
It’s the only thing i’ve got
Bring my heart back
Cause without i’m dancing disconnected
It’s the only thing i’ve got
Bring my heart back

Bring my heart back
Bring my heart back
Disconnected
Bring my heart back
At least apart
Between your red colored nails

(funkstorung-disconnected)

i wonder...

"If i told you things i did before
told you how i used to be
would you go along with someone like me ?

if you knew my story word for word
had all of my history
would you go along with someone like me?"

...and if you saw the things i used to do
along with all my friends
would you go along with someone like me?

Passive aggressive bullshit

I’m sure of your ability to become my perfect enemy

Wake up and face me, don’t play dead cause maybe

Someday I will walk away and say, “You disappoint me,”

Maybe you’re better off this way

I would let you if you asked me

You should have asked me for it

I would have been brave

You should have asked me for it

How could I say no?

Listening to: Bloc Party - i still remember

fear of sleep...

curtains

eenie - meenie - miny - moe

----------------
Listening to: John Frusciante - A Name

I'm having trouble sleeping
I'm thinking of what you said
About the tears been shed 
Leave me

It's you 
Why's it always you 
And never me?
I've never dared to let 
My feelings free 
Why's it always you 
And never me?
I've never cared 
Too much 'bout honesty

The Perishers - Trouble Sleeping

Please bleed
So I know that you are real
So I know that you can feel
The damage that you've done
Who have I become
To myself I am none
I am none
I am none

Ben Harper

Things will never be the same
Still I'm awfully glad I came
Resonating in the shape of things to come
Never waiting when I know there's only one

Messed it up but rest assured
No one ever thinks they're cured
Just a minute while I reinvent myself
Make it up and then I take it off the shelf

Is it safe inside your head
Songs to serenade the dead
All along I said I know no enemies
Mix it up until there are no pedigrees

RHCP - midnight

Kreuzberg

There is a wall that runs right through me
Just like the city,
I will never be joined
What is this love?
Why can I never hold it?
Did it really run out in the strangers' bedrooms?
I have decided
At twenty-five
Something must change Saturday night in East Berlin
We took the U-Bahn to the East Side Gallery
I was sure
I'd found love with this one lying with me
Crying again in the old bahnhof
I have decided
At twenty-five
That something must change
After sex
The bitter taste
Been fooled again
The search continues

surfacing

fuck it all, fuck this world, fuck everything that you stand for!
don't belong, don't exist, don't give a shit!
don't ever judge me!

with no one

Seal your wide shores
With no one in between
You feel your fading dial
You know someone's happened
And you shouldn't feed these things
But let's go
Fading away your nights
You fade to white
You lay me down as I go to the store
Sorrow ate me, I'm not me anymore
Play these heavens one more time
I'm not yours and I'm not mine
Fly a ladder around
Rails succumb to run
Get up
Hear your fates that again reload
The black walls of space take me all the way

my body is a cage

I'm standing on a stage
Of fear and self-doubt
It's a hollow play
But they'll clap anyway

My body is a cage that keeps me
From dancing with the one I love
But my mind holds the key

You're standing next to me
My mind holds the key

I'm living in an age
That calls darkness light
Though my language is dead
Still the shapes fill my head

I'm living in an age
Whose name I don't know
Though the fear keeps me moving
Still my heart beats so slow

My body is a cage
We take what we're given
Just because you've forgotten
That don't mean you're forgiven

I'm living in an age
That screams my name at night
But when I get to the doorway
There's no one in sight

Set my spirit free
Set my body free

the arcade fire

I'll live for you
I'd die for you
Do what you want me to
I'll cry for you
My tears will show
That I can't let you go

It's not over, not over, not over, not over yet
You still want me, don't you
It's not over, not over, not over, not over yet
Cos I can see through you
It's not over, not over, not over, not over yet

Don't let me down
Don't make a sound
Don't throw it all away
Remember me
So tenderly
Don't let it slip away

(klaxons - it's not over yet)

canto como sou.

"é por dentro que eu gosto que aconteça a minha vida!
intima,
funda...
mas os versos depois,
frutos do sonho e dessa mesma vida
é quase à queima roupa que os atiro,
contra a serenidade de quem passa!
canta.
canto como sou!
senhor sabes quem sou?"

in Hereditário de Sam the Kid

canto quem sou! porque sou e como sou!

10.11.12

...inevitável...
circunstancial... como tudo na vida!

disapointment!
maybe next time.

"slave screams he thinks he knows what he wants, slave screams thinks he has something to say, slave screams he hears but doesn't want to listen', slave screams he's being beat into submission, don't open your eyes you won't like what you see, the devils of truth steal the souls of the free, don't open your eyes take it from me"

(Hapiness in Slavery, nin)

only

I'm becoming less defined as days go by
Fading away
And well you might say
I'm losing focus
Kinda drifting into the abstract in terms of how I see myself
Sometimes I think I can see right through myself
Sometimes I can see right through myself
Less concerned about fitting into the world
Your world that is
Cause it doesn't really matter anymore
No it doesn't really matter anymore
None of this really matters anymore
Yes I am alone but then again I always was
As far back as I can tell
I think maybe it's because
Because you were never really real to begin with
I just made you up to hurt myself
And it worked.
Yes it did!
There is no you
There is only me
There is no fucking you
There is only me
Well the tiniest little dot caught my eye and it turned out to be a scab
And I had this funny feeling like I just knew it's something bad
I just couldn't leave it alone, I kept picking at the scab
It was a doorway trying to seal itself shut
But I climbed through
Now I am somewhere I am not supposed to be, and I can see things I know I really shouldn't see
And now I know why, now, now, now I know why
Things aren't as pretty
On the inside

heart in a cage

Well I don't feel better
When I'm fucking around
And I don't write better
When I'm stuck in the ground
So don't teach me a lesson
Cause I've already learned
Yeah the sun will be shining
And my children will burn

Oh the heart beats in its cage

I don't want what you want
I don't feel what you feel
See I'm stuck in a city
But I belong in a field

Yeah we got left, left, left, left, left, left, left

Now it's three in the morning and you're eating alone

Oh the heart beats in its cage

All our friends, they're laughing at us
All of those you loved you mistrust
Help me I'm just not quite myself
Look around there's no one else left
I went to the concert and I fought through the crowd
Guess I got too excited when I thought you were around

Oh he gets left, left, left, left, left, left, left

I'm sorry you were thinking; I would steal your fire.
The heart beats in its cage
Yes the heart beats in its cage
Alright

And the heart beats in its cage

THE STROKES

Everyday is Exactly The Same

I believe I can see the future
Cause I repeat the same routine
I think I used to have a purpose
But then again
That might have been a dream
I think I used to have a voice
Now I never make a sound
I just do what I've been told
I really don't want them to come around

Oh, no

Every day is exactly the same
Every day is exactly the same
There is no love here and there is no pain
Every day is exactly the same

I can feel their eyes are watching
In case I lose myself again
Sometimes I think I'm happy here
Sometimes, yet I still pretend
I can't remember how this got started
But I can tell you exactly how it will end

Every day is exactly the same
Every day is exactly the same
There is no love here and there is no pain
Every day is exactly the same

I'm writing on a little piece of paper
I'm hoping someday you might find
Well I'll hide it behind something
They won't look behind
I'm still inside here
A little bit comes bleeding through
I wish this could have been any other way
But I just don't know, I don't know what else I can do

Nine Inch Nails